I've been thinking about doing this for a whole but I keep putting it off. I want to write a journal about my father. My father is still in my life but lives 500 miles away. I know my father but I don't know the full history about my father. We've talked about his life but not in great,great detail. I want to use my blog to chronicle his life good or bad, boring or sad. I wonder what I will learn or unlearn about him.
What religion are you? That's a question I've been asked frequently over the years. I've had answers in the past but now I find myself without one. I wasn't raised in church but we did go on holidays. I was confirmed as a Methodist but that was it. I didn't keep going or make it part of my life. I got older and more independent about what I wanted and what I thought. I know why religion didn't take well for me...because I'm a control freak and the thought of giving up control to an unseen God was silly. Even now I think about the name God. Ten years ago I wouldn't have used a capital G for the name. My journey changed as I started college in a town with about 20 churches. Religion was such a part of the town that it was pushed on any and everyone who lived there. I didn't like religion being pushed on me so I pushed back. I started reading all about religion any and all kinds. I was building up knowledge so I could pushing back. After learning as much as I could or "wanted too" I made my way to being an atheist. At this point I would picked knowledge fights with religious people to see if I could win. Some how at the time that was entertaining to me. Looking back now it was just me being a dick. My next step was agnostic because I was feeling a little lost and thought maybe something was there but didn't like organized religion. Now as I make my way back or too religion I still don't like putting a face on God. To me putting a face or picture created by man seems flawed in some way. Here is this all knowing and seeing God why take or give a form. The religious journey would next take me east and still love the belief system of Asian religions. Buddhism just has a great out look on life and religion. Be Good and work hard and all will be right in the world. You'll see in the end because you weren't ever bad so that means you'll go to a spiritual place when you die. Now we come to the whole reason for this post. As I get older and have a family that are the world to me I'm searching again for answers. I've been a good person most of my life with some cocky/arrogant sections mixed in. I actually tried to move back towards religion in 2003/2004 but something happened that pushed me away again. The reason I'm thinking about church/religion/God now is my family. My kids and wife are my life and I know it's not just random they were given to me. The logical answer is God and or Faith thus all the new questions. I guess I want to put this out there so that it's not locked in my head and has a chance to run away. I worry about trying church because I know I'll feel out of place. The only times I've been in a church in 20 years was for a playing gig. I'm just going to take it day by day and see where this new direction leads me.
So lately I've been thinking about consolidating more than I already have. I try most new apps and site when they go live from social media, video, check in and pictures. Some times I feel to spread out and I consolidate or delete site profiles. I'm back in that mood where I need to bring it back in again. My latest fix is camera apps/sites but now I've got pictures everywhere and can't keep up with them all. I've also been posting in to many different places so it's time to bring that back focused also. I'll let you all know how it turns out and wish me luck on my deleting.
I think I understand why I'm taking to Spotify so well. I'm of the generation that loved buying CDs. I loved the cd liners and album art. It sucked waiting but it took an artist a while to create an album that was usually worth the wait. What I mean by that is the album had more than 1 or 2 good songs. Music today is good but no albums stand the test of time like they use to. I just don't like paying for something I'm only going to listen to for a while. If I can pay $10 bucks a month for almost all new music then it's worth it. I will still buy an album here and there but streaming media now has me hooked.
Now some of you may have already heard me talk about this but it's a good system for new fathers. When I had my first child I was working two jobs so my wife could stay home. That means seven days a week until there was a holiday or I just couldn't make it anymore. It worked great for about three weeks. I slept like normal all thru the night and didn't think anything of it. Even if you work two jobs to keep the family a float you have to help with the baby. Now I was not a fan of this at first but it became interesting. It's really great if you're a gamer or movie buff. I would come home from work and we'd have an early dinner. My wife would then go to bed. Now this is around 5:30pm or 6:00pm that she'd go to sleep. I would then give the baby a bath and a bottle to get her to sleep. The baby would lay on my chest while I played Call of Duty - World at War. I would stay up until about midnight or 1:00am so she could get a few good hours of sleep. I'd feed the baby one more time and go to bed. That's when the shift change happened...mom was in and I was out. Really out not to wake up again until it was time for work. Just so you know please don't do this every night. You will eventually go crazy. I would do this once every other night or when she needed it. Here I am again with another new baby and it's a little rougher on the body this time. My game this time is Call of Duty - Black Ops. My wife says that both of the kids will have PTSD later in life because of these games. I'm just writing this for maybe a new father that doesn't have a good balance yet. This might not work for everyone but it's great for me.
Well today is baby day or that's what I've been calling it. It's the day my son is set to be born. Strange thought as I type this is I wished I had written one of these for my daughter also but maybe later. So today is the day I become a father to a son which is way different than a father to a daughter. (opinion) When I found out we were having a girl I was like "I got this" but for a son it feels different. I keep asking myself what kind of man do I want him to become. Do I want him to be like me or different. Every father wants their child to do better than they did or are doing. Now this is a crazy thought but I think am I man enough for being a father to a son. Here's why I make that statement. I've always been into the arts...(band) and we think different. Now did I play sports and do I like sports...yes but I'm not a gritty man type. I've worked construction and factory jobs but have a soft side. I can get out and work on my vehicles in the heat and cold but I'd rather pay someone to do it. I guess these are the weird questions a father has to ask himself when having a boy. If a women reads this they would just think I'm crazy but guys I think understand. One day in the future when he's older the cub will challenge the big bear and will I know how to handle it. Will I go with my busted knuckles on an engine block hands or my baton holding soft conductor hands. I don't question if I'm going to be a good father just if I'm going to be a great one. My friend Kelsey has been pulling me back intothe world of baseball. I haven't been a big fan in years but with a boy on the way I feel I should. I even got my old glove out the other day to get a feel for it. All in all I guess it will happen how the universe wants it to. I will just continue to work hard and teach him to work hard.
I'm now on my Christmas break from teaching and started thinking about free time. Now this isn't me complaining just playing things out in my head. The first thing that comes to mind when I have free time is hanging with my family. The next thing is being able to play video games. Next on the list is getting out of the house...there in lays the problem. If I live the house I will spend money. Money I don't have and that's not good. I would love more free time but who knows what bad things can happen with it. I guess that's why it's a really nice thing I don't have any. I get two days off and then on to the second job and wow was I scheduled. I received every day next week. I assumed I was going to get one day off but silly me. The best way for me to look at this is that I won't spend money and more money will come in. I do wish I had more relaxing time but one day it will happen.
Well I just deleted my Tumblr account and still thinking about everything else I can delete. I guess I'm doing spring cleaning in the winter with the internet. I'm just never sure what I'm going to use next or even want to try out. I love all the new things that come out and say "man I really want to try that or that is so freaking cool." After I stop and think about it for a little bit I say "what the hell do I need that for." I'm not sure what's going on in my head right now when it comes to the internet. I guess I'm freaked out about the Google searching thing still. If you missed what I'm talking about...Everyone loves to Google their name and I've done it before but now it's just crazy. I take up almost 20 pages on a Google search and that's just crazy. I guess that is what I get for trying out all kinds of new apps. Now I just wonder if there is a way to clear some of that from Google.
“Life is tough, but it’s tougher if you’re stupid.”
It’s interesting creating this Life Mission Statement because you really start to take inventory of what you’re doing. I’m seeing the things I’m doing right but it’s also depressing to see what I’m doing right. I do believe what I’m doing well is out weighing what I’m not doing correct. I’m sure everyday I work on it and read it I will get better.
I’ve started taking stock of what I’m doing in my life and how I could make it better. I’ve decided that I will make a life mission statement that I can review daily or weekly as needed. I have a good start to my goals but let’s see how it refines it’s self as go from day to day.
I've been toying with the idea of turning off my cable. I'm just turning off cable not my Internet. I'm past the generation that needs a home phone bur not past wanting to have cable. I did it for a year in college but that's a little different because I was really never home. Now I like to come home and watch my DVR but I'm really tired of paying all that money. I have noticed that my reading has gone down and I personally don't feel I spend enough time with my daughter. I'm looking at 3 positives here 1. Read More 2. More Family Time 3. Save Money
Here is my down fall when it comes to this. I like it to relax my mind from stressful days. It's nice to not think about anything and just veg. I do have other things to watch like Netflix and if I ever get an invite Hulu plus, but it doesn't feel the same. I think I just need to pull the plug fast and then just deal with it as it comes.
Anyone have any good ideas on what I should do?
I just finished week 1 of my band camp and it went pretty good. If you didn't already know from reading past post...I'm a band director that some times reviews random things. I use the blog to just get random ideas out of my head so I stop thinking about them. Band camp week 1 went good. I can't say that I got as far as I wanted, but the kids did really well. I went into this season worried because I kept losing a new kid every day. It's not so bad if you're at a big school but small schools it can kill you. We got 2 of the 3 show songs done and the kids move pretty well. I was really hoping to be finished with all 3 by today. Today's practice ended pretty crazy because of uniform fitting. Silly me thought it would take and hour....try 3. We got them all in uniforms and I know how many shoes I need to order.
The one thing I took off my plate this year was writing drill. I am paying someone to do it for me. The great thing about that is I get so much else done in that time. I think I have all my paperwork for the whole year done. Let's just see how next week goes and I'll be a happy camper.
I started mid-week on my digging out of debt blog so I'll sum up how the rest of the week went. I've already talked about what I did the first day to track my spending. I know this blog is probably useless to most but I know it will help me keep and eye on what I'm doing. Please let me know if there is anything I should try or change.
I woke up with this project in mind and made a plan for the day. I set my alarm the night before to get up early. My plan for getting up early is to get a good breakfast at the house. I also had enough time to fix myself lunch for the day. I have a bad habit of farting around just long enough that I have to take the toll to work. I left my house in plenty of time to take the regular roads to work. All in all the only money I will spend today is gas back and forth to work.
Saturday and Sunday
Saturday and Sunday should have been my hardest days to save money or just not spend it. I was off work and that's usually when I spend the most. I did have some slip ups but they weren't large ones. Saturday I made it most of the day before I got out and picked up ice cream and brownie mix from the store. Now I did go to the store and not just an ice cream shop... I know that doesn't make a difference but it made me feel better. So on Saturday I did spend 9.37 that I could have saved. The sweets factor is something I'm going to have to watch. My wife and I really like our sweets and it hurts the saving efforts. Sunday was about the same because I just forced my self to think about what I truly needed for that day. It was the 4th of July so we picked up some chips and ice from Wal-Mart to contribute to the family gathering. The food and ice cost a total of 17.86 on Sunday. I really hate typing that because I think about the fact it's all junk food.
I'm not going to quantify how much each trip cost until I get a grip on everything else. Total for the weekend not including gas is 27.23. Now lets see how I do watching the money over a weeks time.
If you have any suggestion or ideas please leave me a comment.
I've posted some things in the past about debt and how I'm not handling it very well. I know that most of America is in this boat but some days I feel alone. I will attempt to blog track what I'm doing and if it's working. I'm open to any help or suggestion and would love feedback.
I started today by creating a shopping list. I only put things on the list to build 3 solid meals. I first started out at The Dollar Tree to see if I could find anythings on the list. I had some good success with little things like noodles and snack items for the baby. One thing I noticed at the store was name brand cleaning supplies. So the next time I need them I know not to go to Walmart or anywhere else. I then went to Walmart to pick up the rest and double checked the pricing. When I walked in I had a path laid out for each item. I walked out with only one thing that wasn't on my list. I guess that's not bad for day one. Just FYI the extra item only cost $2.88.
Please let me know anything you've tried to get out of debt.
Do you ever think about how the decisions you make now affect things later? This post started when I got cut off by an 18 wheeler on the way home. I got really pissed and said "I'm going to call the company and let them know that guy sucks." Then I stopped and thought thru it. I thought this guy may be just having a bad day...he probabaly has kids...what if I get him fired and he can't support them. What if the simple action of making a call caused all of that to happen?
I didn't call and I'm happy I didn't because it gave me a chance to think about things. I'm going to try and apply this idea every day.
What I do today can have a massive affect on many different things.
I understand this is not a new idea but one that gets over looked some times.
Just going to put some helpful hints out there about this subject. The iPhone and iPod Touch are not really meant to be stand alone devices. They are meant to be paired with one single computer and synced at least once a week. The reason for syncing is to make a back up of the phone in case something happens to it. The iPhone and iPod Touch are great mobile devices and do anything you would probably need on the fly but still need a back up source.
When you sync the most important things you need to get is your contacts, calendar and pictures. Music,apps and movies can be replaced if truly need be but you can't go back in time and take that picture again. As you can see I'm focusing mainly on the iPhone users now so if you're an iPod Touch use just make sure you sync/back your phone up.
iPhone users need to understand something when you're on the iPhone or any smart phone for that matter...YOUR CONTACTS ARE NOT SAVED ON THE SIM CARD ANY MORE! You have to select somewhere to put the contacts. You can select outlook for PC, Address book for Mac and Gmail, Yahoo for both.
Please people sync your iPhone and iPod Touch. It will save you so many problems in the future.
MobileMe is a product offered from Apple Inc. MobileMe provides for the paid subscriber an email address, contact, calendar, online photo gallery and 20 gigs of online hard drive space. The idea behind MobileMe is to connect all of you device to one place. You add contacts to your home computer or your iPhone/iPod touch and then sync your home and work computer with your iPhone/iPod touch. Connecting them allows all devices to show the same thing at any given time. The 20 gigs of online hard drive space also have different folders for different things. It has a public folder for anyone and everyone to view. It also has a share feature that allows you to put a time limit or password on the file.
Just the contact sync is the thing I use the most when moving from computer to computer. When I add a new contact to my phone it's automatically sync's it to the cloud and my home computer. The calendar works the same way when adding events on the web from work. I'm always in sync with the 10,000 places I need to be at any given minute. I really enjoy my MobileMe for these features and think you will too.
If you have anything to add to this post please feel free to leave me a comment.
I'm playing with all the different skins or layouts you can use with wordpress. I just don't know what looks good. I know its a little thing but I just want it to look nice. Maybe its to take away from how I type or think.
GDrive is a rumored online hard drive space offered from Google. The big buzz behind Gdrive is it's rumored to be unlimited hard drive space tied to your Gmail account. Google has started down this path with Google Doc's. Google doc's is tied to your Gmail account and allows you to store, edit and even create word documents. Google doc's eliminates the need to carry around a flash/jump drive. Google doc's just recently added a feature called "Folders." "Folders" allows you to upload other types of files such as pictures, music and small videos. The folders feature in Google docs is limited to 1028MB of space which if I'm correct is about 1 gig worth of space.
GDrive will be a great benefit if and when it goes online. GDrive would have much more storage space than a gig as in Google Docs. Unlimited storage is highly unlikely but with Google you never really know. Google will probably stay on pair with the other 2 when it comes to storage space. Twenty or Thirty Gigs would probably be the most given to any one account. The wonderful thing about Google is you can have as many accounts as you would like for free.