So as I get older things stress me out more than they use too. You'd think with age would bring wisdom and calm but not in some aspects of my life. The thing that gets me these days is performances. I have performed in front of tens of thousands of people but putting on a simple Christmas concert these days scares me to death. Even when I know my bands are ready I freak out. Tonights performance will be good but will it be the best they can do and what will people think. I use to never think about what people thought of me. Maybe it's just the anticipation of what could go wrong instead of what's going to go great. I keep trying to tell myself that I'm worked up because I want them to do well but I think it's just me. The crazy thing about it is you can't show them any fear or they will fall apart. One way or the other I'm feeling very worked up and needed to get this off my chest.